Chassidy

...... ..... ..... ..... .... ..... .. ... ... ... .... ...... ..... ...... ...... ..... ....... ...... .... .. .......Actually my mind right now is just moving on like the dots in front..... The sight today which I saw made the greatest impact on me.. I don't think I have ever been influenced so much before....... before I go much into what exactly this is all abt and of course what exactly Chassidy means...

I am a person who takes matters revolving around work and studies seriously... Mybe even of life and relationship.. Guess that accounts for everything..So come work or studies If I have a deadline I do it round the clock to get it done.. Come Exams I never feel confident enough.. study this. study that.. it never ends.. and of course I keep wondering why God has abandoned me then... Might be too often I blame Allmighty for not helping me out.... Yeah i Do crib a lot to him on our personal communication channel..

After 4 years of work...being quite successful at what I was... I came here to Univ Of Texas to do my Masters.. and now and then I sometimes feel bad abt .. again being dependant on others.. like being short on money always.. asking for rides from others.... getting back to studies.., and so on..kinda judge me now ? Yeah I do know Life is not a bed of roses and there is no straight path .. and its full of challeneges.. and if there is no challeneges and no surprises then life would be monotonic and Black And White.. but yeah I do tend to crib when things dont go the way I feel... and the other person who listens to all my problem is my mom.. She hears me day and night.. and prays for the same.. yeah.. Its a big relief having both of them at the standby posts just to hear my worriees and calming me down...

Well next week is my Mid term for one of my courses and I was on my way to Study hall in the Central Library..Was wondering how long will i need to be there.. planning out my Algorithm course study schedule and my mid term study preparations...I pressed the up button on the elevator and was waiting for it to come.. in midst of thoughts.. i saw a Smiling face.. A face which had absolutely no worries... a lady who's face could bring u instant calmness.. my thought process stopped when i returned back a smile to her.. she was on a wheel chair.. she was not just having any disabilities.. she had only half of all her limbs.. they were just like stubs on her body...but She was still moving in a totally capable manner with her chair.... She was well dressed and even had a nice handbag on her shoulders... I asked her which floor she wanted to go and pressed the same for her.. She dropped off at her floor and went to some section I couldnt see from the elevator..,

when the elevator stopped at the floor i wanted to get down . I was not able to .. I wanted to know more abt her.., I wanted to talk to her.. I pressed the floor which she got down and saw her near the computer. She was in front of that looking on to the screen. I am really clueless on how she got on to that page.. I introduced myself and as like any other person in US. they were quite not sure how an Indian got such a Roman name and ..she introduced herself as Chassidy.. A Junior doing her studies in psychology.. a proper resident at texas.. She said that she used to come to library often and we parted by telling each other that we will catch up..

I till this point thought I had a tough time with my life..but here is Chassidy..who is taking Life as it gives to her.. and is living the life to its fullest in her means... she doesnt show any remorse or being left alone.. she infact is competing woth other students on their same level... She really made me feel a lot for my lack of confidence and my continual needless worries.. Sometimes we really don't tend to appreciate the good things in life we just see the bad parts and judge by it..So much that we even kill the joy of good things in our life.. but Chassidy has made me look into my life in a whole new perspective... and hope that it might bring some enlightment to those who are reading this and has the bad tendencies like me.....